This pregnancy came as a shock....blah...blah...blah. You've heard it before. But I have been greatly blessed by 3 miracles this pregnancy that I just have to share.

1. I usually suffer from depression during and after pregnancy. I was prompted to fast that during my next pregnancy I wouldn't. I didn't listen to the prompting because it was going to be another year before I was pregnant. Within the next few weeks I saw 2 pink lines. I thought because I didn't listen the Lord would deny me that blessing I so desperately wanted both for myself and my family. I asked for a blessing, I repented, and I have been blessed with a depression free pregnancy. I still get grumpy but I don't hate myself and that makes a world of difference in our home. I am grateful everyday!

2. Along with the lack of my usual black world when growing a child, I have a great sense of peace and purpose. There is no doubt in my mind that the Lord wants this baby here and that Chad and I are working hand in hand with the Lord to further  His work. It is an amazing feeling! 

3. Now despite both of those HUGE gifts, I still am not ready for another baby. I am totally content with letting Jessie be the baby for another year. But here's the 3rd miracle that I know will happen. Not the expanding of my body to build a baby or the expanding to have a baby, but the expansion of my heart to love this baby. I know that this spirit will change my life and our home. And I will love her! That is a gift only my Father in Heaven could give and I'm grateful for it. As I serve her my heart will grow larger and so will my abilities to care for my little ducklings. I'm so glad I get to be a mom.